Sunday, January 01, 2012
Words can't express how disappointed and hurt I am...
I'm disappointed with how things turned out this way and I actually felt kinda hurt and betrayed... I guess I was following too closely to the game or maybe I simply had too high an expectation of people; too trusting or too much of an idealist.
Paboya... you've gotten yourself hurt for putting too much feelings into something which has yet quite materialize.
Posted at 12:01 am, basket full of posies
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Invasion of personal space
I hate this invasion of personal space - intrusion of my well deserved break via wadsapp and calls. How can one recharge from a year's of hard work if he/she has to be reminded about work or deal with issues when merely away for a few days? If I have to start my laptop and deal with issues coz I happen to be resting at home and not outside, then tell me what is my leave for? I might as well change it to work from home! My morning resolution of clearing emails in the afternoon has changed. I will only clear them when I'm back in office tomorrow! As an advocator against mixing work into personal life, its ironic that I couldn't achieve this... otherwise my white hair wouldn't increase that drastically, wouldn't be experiencing this constant constricted feeling in the chest and tummy all the time which caused my weight to drop significantly, all since after uni days!
Posted at 03:07 pm, basket full of posies
Thursday, December 08, 2011
Training intake; termination; appeals; project meeting; floor committee; offers; o level programme; liquidated damages; provide stats; answer queries; prepare materials for meetings... These are the things I do everyday.
I think it pretty much cover the full spectrum from recruitment to termination. I'm amazed at how fast I switch between each task but is on the verge of breaking down due to appeals. That's one of the major push factors of this job. It requires the officer to be rational, logical and yet have empathy - which is extremely difficult for someone with no flair in writing.
I figured I wouldn't have to face appeals if I'm not in this sector. Its emotionally (extremely depressing/makes my blood boil) and mentally draining (draft replies). I hope I can get out of this soon!
Posted at 08:36 pm, basket full of posies
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
What a shame we all became such fragile broken things
I'm tired and wish to put a stop to all these... The sheer amount of work is taking a toil on me mentally and physically. I'm afraid I might just snap when I can't hold onto the frustration that has build up within me. I wish there's someone whom I can talk to, without the fake front that I have been putting forth.
Posted at 10:49 pm, basket full of posies
Sunday, October 09, 2011
It ain't so hard to share afterall. I felt so much better after pouring out. :)
Posted at 08:40 pm, basket full of posies
Monday, August 29, 2011
I have neglected this space for a while. I was too busy to even think of rambling at this little space of mine. Oh wells, I'm glad that I've survived 2 secretariat duties that was scheduled 1 week after each other. I almost died soliciting the meeting agenda, drafting the NOM and collating the inputs from all the units. So relieved that I've passed this hurdle but life doesn't become any sweeter. I have gotten a few more arrows on my back. Sigh, I don't think I can lead and would rather be the executor :(
As a motivation to myself, I have taken the plunge and bought this a few weeks ago...
I was really scared to show this to my mum coz I did not tell her about my plan to buy it... especially when I just bought my MM in Apr. The damage is about 1 month of my salary and I refused to tell her the actual price till now. :P Nonethless, it was a whirlwind purchase coz the Ngee Ann City boutique did not have the brown I wanted so I got this which had a tint of red instead. I love the colour and how versatile the bag can be. And, and, and! I have not surfed for bags ever since I bought the paraty. Hehe its definitely great news for my bank account.
Another great news. Till now, I have paid off 12K of my school loan! I'm now left with slightly less than half of the loan. Hahaha I could have cleared it if I have not spent so much on bags. :P I think I have enough bags for now... shall concentrate on clearing the loan which would be another great achievement for myself! :)
Posted at 11:41 pm, basket full of posies
Monday, August 01, 2011
Enough, if it makes you feeling drained everyday.
Enough, if it gives you pounding headache almost every other day.
Enough, it it makes you breakdown over the slightest issue.
Enough, if your boss trust an outsider over her own girls.
I am perfectly ok if the job I love to do doesn't give one much prospect for advancement. I am willing to deal with all the demanding cases if the boss is understanding and supportive. But with all the challenges and the boss choose to believe an outsider just because we are not those who would complain to her, then I think its really time to move on. To think I was determined to work hard and save up for the US trip next year after proposing to the girls last sat. I even made a mental note to be more positive and less irritated with work this morning, which lasted for barely a day.
Posted at 10:08 pm, basket full of posies
Thursday, July 28, 2011
In desperate need of a break
I hardly go on leave. That's because I want to play my part during the peak period from Jan to Jul. And when I finally go on leave these few days, I really want to take my mind off work. I'm mentally tired and I snap easily these days. All thanks to the persistent appeallants, vendor who's like an ancient stick-in-the-mud dinosaur and a GP that does not have much patience.
But work are still coming in via phone, wadsapp, emails... I'm still working, just that the mode has changed! Can I disappear for a few days? Or is it really a must to get out of town so that I could be spared for a few days?
I'm upset, miserable and unhappy!
Posted at 08:16 pm, basket full of posies
